Weekending

Well, my weekend is usually interrupted by working Friday night/Saturday morning. Next weekend however, I am taking a vacation day and Roommate and I are taking a short trip across the border. The north border to Oklahoma. We are visiting the National Memorial for the explosion of the federal building in Oklahoma City. A co-worker of mine visited there last month, brought back pictures and I had the desire to visit myself.

I know it will be emotional. I think the first question I asked was about the chairs at the monument, there is one for each person who perished. I asked if the chairs were all the same size. No. I got choked up just thinking about that. I know there is a reflecting pool and a statue across the street at what used to be a church parsonage. According to my co-worker, the statue is of Jesus, with his back t the monument and the inscription reads, "And Jesus wept."

I hope my RA, rheumatoid arthritis, keeps in check for my trip. I unfortunately have had a "flare up" for the last seven months and doubt that I will be pain free for my short vacation. As of right now typing this I am missing a birthday party for a dear sweet 5-year old girl because I can barely get around. There is pain in my fingers, toes, back and chest. I am stiff all over. The fatigue is terrible. I sometimes feel so lazy due to the fatigue. I understand my ex's assumption that I was lazy due to the amount of rest needed for this terrible debilitating disease. If you know someone with RA, I highly recommend getting an education in all aspects of this infliction. The more you know, the more understanding you can be with your loved one who suffers in so many ways. The worst is those around you who do not understand fully what someone with RA or Lupus, Crohn's disease, etc. goes through.

I know that I don't get to update this spot as often as I should, just bare with me because I am doing the best I can. When I first separated from my husband and moved in with Roommate, I purchased a journal to keep track of my thoughts etc. I wrote out my prayers -- very cathardic and I highly recommend it to all. I did real good at keeping it up for a few months, but I don't think I've made an entry since March. I hope to update this site once a week, maybe more often. If you think I should make a change, e-mail me -- or if you are a personal friend, call me.

Well, I think I've rambled enough. Until next time!